things I've managed to do during this period of depression

Mostly kept to a vaguely diurnal schedule

Got up for a Tuesday morning appointment every week

Learnt how to make actually wearable clothes through a combination of classes, Youtube videos and repeatedly fucking things up

Gone on holiday, twice

Gone to all five parts of an enormous wedding and actually enjoyed myself

Spent quality time with the other people living in the same house as me

Started re-learning Italian and have (currently) a thirty-five day continuous streak going

Gone to at least half a dozen dance events

Taken photos

Seen some of the people I like whilst also not seeing the people I don't like 

Responded to shitty behaviour of employer like an adult who knows what she's talking about

Written

Sorted out basic household stuff

Supported boyfriend also going through a difficult time

Supported friend going through a worse time than possibly everyone else I know put together, as much as she'd let me

Thrown out quite a lot of clutter

Come up with a PLAN to extricate myself from a crappy situation

Read two books and a play

Seen films, gone to the theatre, had cocktails, met new people, gone for dinners, been to birthday parties and generally had THINGS in my life

(I've written this out because I spend so much time wondering how I can fix everything that I forget what I've actually done. I keep thinking about the plans I skipped out on and comparing my social life to what it was a couple of years ago, glossing over all the stuff I actually have done and the fact that while things may have changed, that's not necessarily either my fault or a bad thing. Maybe things had to become uncomfortable in order to push me out of my shitty job, and maybe from a few steps back it's easier to see a group dynamic I don't really want to be a part of. If I've got any hope of getting better any time soon it won't be through obsessively trying to fix everything to be the way it used to be.)